Silly boy. :)

Christmas is coming, and so is Bridger's birthday!! I have everything done for Christmas (except one thing that Wal Mart messed up...) anyway, since school has ended and Christmas is pretty much finished up I have been working on Bridger's party and it is turning out SO cute! I was trying to decide if we should have two parties for him, one up here for family and one in Hurricane for family but we have decided to just do one in Hurricane. It's just too crazy and he won't care anyway. But I have put together a lot of cute ideas that I am working on...I think I want to stay busy so I won't realize that my baby boy is going to be ONE. ah. It's like I can't fully comprehend it or something. Doesn't it seem like when your family consisted of just you and your spouse or even when you were just dating, time didn't go as fast? And then once you have a baby it like shoots in to fast forward mode and you feel like your going to wake up the next morning and be 80 and a grandma??? (Ok, that's a small exaggeration, but it does feel like that sometimes.) It's funny, for some reason people think that young mom's forget to savor every moment, and maybe most do...I don't know, but I try to enjoy and imprint every smile, every "mama" and "dada" and "nanana" in my mind, I try to really feel my feelings about being a mom and wife. I love every thing he does, even when he throws fits (although I don't let him see that), I try to soak up every new milestone, every new tooth, every slobbery kiss, every time I nurse him, every time he calls for me standing up in his crib with a smile on his face after a good nap, that cute little diaper butt!, his tiny little toes and dimples everywhere, his chubby fingers and such kissable cheeks...his fuzzy bed hair, his huge beautiful eyes...I wish I could take these memories out of my mind and record them on a dvd to watch over and over and over and over again. It is the silly little things that he does that I don't want to forget too, like the one that happened today. He got up from his nap and I thought he was chillin with his dad, and his dad thought he was chillin with me...so, while I am sewing I call, "Honey, what's Bridger doing?" (since guys like go in to their little zone out box sometimes...ha ha) and he's like...shoot. (Good thing I asked...) And he starts looking around the house...he wasn't anywhere!! I was starting to freak out, and Jeremy goes upstairs to look around and he opens Bridger's nursery door and Bridger was just sitting in there being really really quiet and smiled at him with this big, mischievious grin when he came in. It was absolutely adorable! Ha ha. He was being so quiet...he seriously is the smartest kid. He climbed up the stairs, went to his room and hid in there from us until we came to find him! Little stinker. Then we realized he had a dirty diaper...ha ha maybe it was supposed to be a hint...? I don't know. He sure keeps us on our toes though. I love it. :) We bought a few 3+ toys for him for Christmas that will hopefully keep him entertained for any amount of time...Tonight Jeremy and Bridger were playing "castles" with some blocks that we bought a few days ago. Jeremy was King Dad, Bridger was just knocking everything over so he was named Bridgerzilla and they were having a blast! King Dad: "You will never destroy this castle, you will never knock it down!" Bridgerzilla: Crazily swinging his arms everywhere destroys castle. While giggling. It was so cute to watch, I love my boys so so so so so so much. My family and the Gospel is everything to me. :)

Quote of the day: "You make me feel loserific."-Jeremy, bahahahaha (he was just kidding, I'm not that mean).

Here are some pictures. :)

These first pictures are the ones that we put on our Christmas card...

 That grin just literally melts my heart. I just want to just squeeze him. He is so yummy.

 He looks like he is thinking, "seriously mom? You just dressed me up and put lights on me and you want me to smile???" Yes, I did son. He's quite stubborn, like his father.

   Bahaha I love his face in this one. :)

Yes, that is a camera lens protector...it was the only way I could get him to lay on the blanket! Stinker.

 One of his most favorite things to do. :)

 Got tired of that and wants to take a bath ha ha, silly boy. Look at those adorable baby legs! I love how he stands on the very tips of his toes so he can see things, his little tiny feet. ha ha. :)

 Ok, see that tongue sticking out in concentration?? Jeremy and I both do that!! I don't know if that got passed down through genetics or what...anyway, I found him here slapping the keyboard of my laptop and having the time of his life, his face was all lit up from the screen and he was so excited (he never gets to touch the computer so he did this when I was in the other room) it was funny. :)

 Our family pictures...we were a little disappointed in how they turned out but they still look pretty good. :)

Us! :)

My side of the family. :)

Why??

This is on my mind right now, and I needed somewhere to write it, so here it goes: Why do people get angry at and make fun of people who are trying to better themselves? I don't get it. You would think they would be happy for them, and I don't know, maybe say "good job!" or something...even if they didn't say anything, can't they just keep their guilt and thoughts to themselves? As many of you know (probably all of you) Jeremy is in the National Guard and works at Camp Williams, he works with a lot of really good guys, but Jeremy is just really different than a lot of them. He loves his job, but it is hard, especially because he deals with a lot of swearing and dirty talk all day from what he is doing (I can't really say...cause I am not aloud...ha ha) anyway, the other guys use what they do all day as an excuse to swear or watch movies that "shouldn't" be up to their par saying that, "we do this all day, why does it matter if I do/watch/say stuff?" Jeremy tells them that just because they do it for work doesn't mean he is going to go and "seek that kind of stuff out." He just gets really annoyed because they are always teasing him about stuff, because he doesn't just give in and lower his standards (most of the guys are LDS too, but don't really act like it). They literally tease him about everything...talking to his wife before he buys things, reading scriptures at work...only watching PG movies...and just about everything else an LDS person in the world trying to better themselves tries to do, for that matter, people don't even have to be LDS to better themselves (obviously) ANY person trying to better themselves might do these things. These guys really are awesome and their teasing isn't "mean" it's just a little too much and he gets tired of it. Yesterday they were trying to decide on a movie for the Christmas party today, Jeremy said, "I don't want to watch anything with violence, swearing, or sex." And all the guys just basically laughed...and guess what, today he texts me and says that they were watching some comedy show that was dirty and he can't even come home from the party, so he told me he was going to take a nap. I feel so bad. It's like he tries and tries and tries and people just won't leave him alone. He has even been called self-righteous by a family member, and I could tell that it really upset him (that person doesn't even understand him at all...). Why when people are trying to better themselves, do people believe they are just trying to think they are better than everyone else??? What do you do? Lower your standards to fit in with the rest of the world so they don't think you're better than them? Trying to be better everyday is a personal matter, it's not about trying to be better than your friends, coworkers, and family members. My theory is that those who get mad at people for things like this just feel guilty because they know they should be doing those things too?? Maybe. I have no idea. If anyone has any insight, please share. I'm frustrated. :p I do know though, that he is a great example, and he has had so many opportunities through the army to help people and do a lot of good, it makes me happy to know that he isn't just good for show, he is doing his best everyday even when it's hard to do the right things...it shows to me his true strength and his dedication to the Gospel. :) I guess it's the hard times that make your true self show...I sure love him. :)

My dancin' baby. :)

Oh my gosh. I haven't blogged in forever. I am always all "mad" (not really mad, but more like...dangit!) when my fellow bloggers don't blog, and then I remember how awful I am at writing on a regular basis so I can't really be that sad. Anyway, Bridger started dancing about a month ago and I absolutely love it! He swings his arms everywhere and bounces. Anyway, a couple weeks ago I was washing dishes and we have this drawer that Bridger loves to play in. loves. Let me say that again. loves. He could like sleep in there. He was playing in there and pulling everything out, just babbling to himself, I turned around to check on him and he was in the drawer! Bahaha! He is so adorable! By the look on his face you could tell he was like, "isn't this what these are for??" and he was just having a blast. So I yelled for Jeremy to grab the camera and he started recording...I was going to post the video but it wasn't uploading so...maybe later?? I don't know. Anyway, he stood up in the drawer (without holding on to anything) when Jeremy started beat boxing and he started bouncing in there and dancing, it was so funny, then he started to fall out and I caught him. I will try to post it again later. You have to see it. :)

Bridger is 11 months old...and his 1st birthday is coming up fast! This year has just flown by, it's still crazy to me that last year at this time I was 8.5 months pregnant with him! I sure love our little guy, he's like my little buddy, we just chill at home together and watch Blue's Clues while we make lots of messes-it's a blast. :) I love his personality, he is so silly, so smart, and so darn cute. He has also started "talking" on the phone, he puts the phone like almost on his back and starts jabbering in his little made up language which usually consists of a few mamama's a couple of dadada's and a lot of NANANANANA's. Yes, he does yell at people sometimes all the time. :) He is SO close to walking, I already know he can do it, he could have been walking since 10 months, but he is extremely cautious. This week I started taking one hand and walking around the house with him, he is getting much more confident and has been taking a few steps a day on his own, I think it's helping him to see that, "hey, I can do this!" He has been sleeping better too, about two weeks ago he started sleeping from 7 or 7:30 at night until about 3-4:30 in the morning which is about 8 hours straight! He even went 9 & 10 hours a couple of nights. We put a humidifier in his bedroom and I think that really helped. Now if only Jeremy and I could get to bed before 1 AM... :p We're workin on it. He has also started eating better. If you don't personally know Bridger, then I just need to tell you that he is and always has been (and probably always will be) a very particular baby. very. very. very. I was getting so frustrated because I would put him in his high chair and immediately he would start screaming, then I would try to feed him and he would like squeeze his adorable little baby lips together and wave his hands around all crazy until the food flew off the spoon. He wasn't eating anything except breastmilk, so one day I was like, "maybe he just wants to do it by himself..." so, at 10 months old I gave him his own spoon and his very own bowl with a little dot of food in it and vwalah! He has been eating awesome ever since. :) He puts a bite (more like a messy lick) in his mouth, then I get a turn and that's how it works. He also drinks out of the cup by himself, I guess I should add that not only is he particular but he is very independant too. I am amazed that he can pretty much feed himself already. I can't complain though, I love who he is and who he is going to be, I feel like with his personality he will be able to accomplish a lot and be able to do great things throughout his life. I found a quote that I absolutely adore and I want to put it up in his room...

NO ONE ELSE will ever know the strength of my LOVE for you

After all, you're the ONLY ONE who knows what my HEART

sounds like from the inside.

I sure love my little guy. :') 

On a more funny note (as it usually is with Jeremy...) I accidently bought a ton of super cute baby clothes from Old Navy and when I showed Jeremy, with a confused/sad look on his face he said, "Bridger has better clothes than I do..." bahahahahaha. I LOVE my husband. So much. I laugh everyday because of him. :) He is hilarious. I need to write more about him, he is the love of my eternity and I am SO grateful that we found each other. He works really hard for our little family and even though he is not perfect, he's perfect for me. :)

This semester is coming to an end, and then next semester I am taking 18-this is not a mistake, I really meant to write 18, upper division classes to graduate. I hope it goes okay... :)

 I would just like to add this little thought in...I've been learning lately that Heavenly Father is always reaching His hand out to us...we just have to reach back to Him, He is always there. I have heard this before and I have always known it but it touched me in a different way, when Christ suffered for us, He not only suffered for our sins, He suffered for all of the negative feelings and hard times in our lives as well. He knows how it feels when you have a big decision and don't know what to do, He knows how it feels to be scared, He knows how it feels to have your feelings hurt or to be sad, He knows how it feels to be stressed. He knows. And He suffered for those things, so that we don't have to. Sometimes He is the only one who can help, and He will, if we ask Him.

I am not sure why I felt like I needed to write that, but if it doesn't touch anyone else, at least it reminded me. :)